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Friday, September 11, 2009

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 17:36:12 GMT

I don't like it when people say they work better under pressure, because most of the time they don't. They only work more under pressure. If they did the same amount of work under pressure as they did not under pressure, their not under pressure work would probably be undoubtedly better.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 05:25:05 GMT

I haven't slept for 28 hours and counting. It's like my bodys giving me the perfect balance of coughing and back pain so I won't fall asleep ever. God is leaving my eyes wide open so I can see the evil grin on his face when he continuously pegs my ass with the wrong end of a broomstick.

I'm probably never going to see a lot of people from HBHS ever again. If I do, I'll look away awkwardly and pretend not to notice them.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 01:24:53 GMT

Whenever I would read books in school I'd try to listen to certain cds so I'd associate that album w/the book

Interview With a Vampire is associated with Bat For Lashes' Two Suns
Killer Angels is The Decemberists - Her Majesty
M83's self titled goes with Night and 1984
East of Eden went with all the Concretes/Taken By Trees stuff I had
The Pipettes only CD goes with The Official SAT Study Guide lol

yeahhh

ok

Thursday, April 09, 2009

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 02:56:41 GMT

Being a semi cripple sucks. I know it's funny that I walk like a retard, but I'm also basically in constant pain, and that's not funny. That's actually not very funny at all.

Actually, my life sucks a lot. I'm going to some shit community college, I have a shit social life, I have a shit crippled for life body, I have a shit future. I try, but it's really hard to be happy.

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 21:52:05 GMT

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS

- Stop drinking soda

- Discover myself

Friday, November 28, 2008

Fri, 28 Nov 2008 22:56:00 GMT

A lot has been happening in my life. Doing my UC apps made me realize.. I really don't want to be here. I don't know if that's enough motivation to slog through the rest of the year, but yeah. We'll see

lol... I camped out for Black Friday with quoc and his friends/relatives, it was crazy. The line to frys wrapped around the whole building. The whole thing seemed ridiculous. There were a lot of Asians there.

Quoc befriended the group of Chinese kids next to us and they turned out to be super fun. They taught us how to play mahjong; then we played poker, blackjack, and SPOONS. The loser of spoons had to do dares... I was the first one to lose, and they made me ask for a girl's number. The girls at the table directed me to a girl in a striped sweater. "She's pretty cute," one of them said. "Go ask her!"

So I approached the girl and asked as innocently as I could, but immediately the woman next to her (presumably her older sister) gives me the death stare. "Look me in the eyes, right here. Don't even consider it. She's twelve." :O

So we stopped doing dares

It turned out camping out was completely useless. At around 3:30 (Frys was set to oepn at 5), people started running up to the front. There was a huge snowball effect and pretty soon everybody was sprinting, trying to secure a place in the new line. Some used shopping carts to bully their way through and blockade the area off from any deviant cutters. It was a mad rush; it was chill though, the Chinese kids secured us a spot in line while we cleaned up. We were set.

By opening, the lined had malformed into a writhing mass hungry for great deals. It was utter chaos. You couldn't move independently-- you were subject to the ebb and flow of the crowd. A group of salty middle aged people tried to stifle the stampede by linking hands together. "CALM THE FUCK DOWN! YOU PEOPLE ARE SO FUCKING IMMATURE!" Shrieked an OC housewife, retaliating against the crowd with dirty looks and flying elbows. Eventually the protests broke down under the weight of the prevailing anarchy. I guess it became apparent that diplomacy was useless when a 300$ laptop was on the line.

The store was stressful. The hot items ran out within minutes. The cash registers were on the fritz. I barely got anything I wanted. I don't think I'd ever want to go again.

Still, it was a really fun experience and I'm happy that I went. I can file the experience in my head for future use.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 04:56:26 GMT

Tonight I went down my buddy list and im'd [almost] everyone. It was pretty pleasant. I think I realized that I'm not or I wasn't always an antisocial freak. I kind of regret not keeping intact some of my friendships. Like, Tanner? Dude, you're pretty cool. Your big gay self is pretty cool. Always kept me informed about edison buddies. And Pat! I've never talked to you much, but we've always been friendly. Why didn't we ever get closer? idk. Georgetown with you was pretty sweet. idk. And Aris, too! Man, we've both gone through the horrors of 4chan. Why don't we talk more?

I think these past 2 weeks have been really bizarre. I talked to Aaron and I think we both realized we kind of threw away our junior years. I think what we really regret is just like not truly investing ourselves into different groups. I know I've had close friends that have helped me, but god knows I'm not close to Neuman or like, Matthew Pate. I mean, I think I see those kids and they're all happy because they truly found their niche and enjoyed it. I never immersed myself completely, and it's my senior year and I think I just need to dive in.

for the past few weeks i think i've been trying, sort of. I worked out with alan and aaron like 3 days in a row. I hung out with ari and his friends twice (lol, he's a lot nerdier than i thought). I chilled with Aaron and Garrett a few times. I sort of chilled with Kyle/AJ, but mostly for hw. I gave Mimi a few rides and she brought me a fucking bear claw, and i fucking love bear claws.

my point is it's my senior year and i need to fucking take advantage of it because i have a goddamn car and half of you mooks dont and i really can't waste it it's my last year to be a punk high school teenager. where have i been this last year? stuck at home. can't be stuck athome. i have to be out and about and out and about and i can't stop the music. please don't stop the music.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 03:55:48 GMT

I think my fave movies are the matrix, rushmore, and american beauty (not in that order)

i think the matrix is just so awesome. It's like. A lot of people give it shit for having Keanu Reeves and being kind of lame but it's such a cultural milestone, it has to be good. It's like the perfect mix of science fiction tropes with sweet special effects for an amazing experience. Also, Keanu might suck at acting but he's a good dude and his mannerisms perfectly fit the role of his character in the matrix. So it's soooo good.

Rushmore is just such a good movie.. The direction + cinematography + writing + music etc etc. I <3 royal tenenbaums and life aquatic (i actually think it's good) but like, I think Rushmore is the movie where the visual style perfectly fit the movie. Like, it was a perfect balance that let the story tell itself and it was soo good. Like, idk, it didn't feel as affected.

American Beauty.. I just think is a beautiful movie. I think Kevin Spacey's an amazing/hilarious actor and I loved the character he portrayed in this film.. A really heart rending portrayal of life, etc etc. IDK, I just think it's such a good movie. God.

I also really liked 'butch cassidy and the sundance kid'. It's not one of my favorites, but I recently watched it and the "chase scene" is just so good and intriguing imo. It's one of my fave movies I've watched in art of film so far.

Sunday, October 05, 2008

Sun, 05 Oct 2008 00:54:47 GMT

lol, I failed my subject tests so badly

I think I'm going to study up on ush so i can avenge next month

And also, math ii

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 03:01:20 GMT

I think Mr Renfrew likes me. Well, maybe not likes me but he's ok enough with me to give me the time of day.

I wish ms stowell liked me. I just want to pinch her cheeks and give her a big sarcastic hug :D. I mean, she doesn't dislike me but I'm pretty much just another student in her class

I don't know completely what ms woods thinks of me. I think she's disappointed that I suck at calc, but in general I think she likes me.

I think Ms Gruwell doesn't love me, but it's just because she doesn't put up with bullshit, something that I kind of did a lot of in her classes. She likes me, though.

I don't really know what Kamei thinks of me. I'd probably file it under 'stowell' levels, where I'm pretty much just another student.

I don't know if mr harmicar likes me. If I were harmicar, I would hate my guts because I'm kind of a punk to him. But he acts nice to me since I got the 5 on the test.